By Lynna Clark

Though David’s only been gone about seven weeks, I’ve started seeing someone. First it was Andy. He’s a nice enough guy. But the fact that he can’t keep his uniform pants outside his zip-up ankle boots really bothers me. Somehow one or the other is always hiked up over his shoes all willy-nilly. So I moved on to Lucas. Lucas McCain otherwise known as The Rifleman. Now the house is not so quiet. And that big ol’ rapid fire rifle makes me feel safe. He’s got the cutest son named Mark. I was curious if the actor playing Mark, Johnny Crawford, had gone on to star in other shows. I got sucked into a rabbit hole on the web and never did find out. I did see that before The Rifleman, Johnny was a Mouseketeer. It saddened me to see that he died in 2021 of Alzheimer’s. Hard to imagine. As I was looking at facts about actors playing different parts on the series, it didn’t take long to figure out that they used some actors in numerous episodes. One guy was simply listed as “reoccurring bad guy.” In one episode he’d be a hobo, then the next he’d return as a bank robber. It’s funny to me how they used to recycle their actors back in the day.

I have a reoccurring bad guy. He visits often. Sometimes he whispers very negative thoughts making me feel terribly inadequate. Other times he shows up as a bump in the night. Mostly he tries to push his agenda that things will never get better because my true love is gone. He makes my heart hurt and my weaknesses look overwhelming. Though he takes on different roles he is still the same old bad guy. I think his real name is Fear. And I don’t love him.

Years ago I was telling our daughter Stephanie about my lack of brain cells as I try to write something worth reading. In fact I may have called myself a doofus. She quietly replied with words I’ll treasure forever. “Mama, I don’t know where those words are coming from. But they are NOT from the Lord.”

Paul wrote to young Timothy good solid words of wisdom. “God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” -2 Timothy 1:7. I know I’ve used that verse several times lately. But it is the Truth that God is reminding me of in my current season. It is also my weapon against my own reoccurring bad guy.

When I feel fearful and hopeless and unlovable and even a good bit crazy, it’s good to know this precious promise of God. What a weapon! Better than a rapid firing rifle with twelve rounds!