By Rhonda Sassano
Hi friends! I only speak for myself when I say that I’m a devout Christian who struggles with depression. At the moment, I have 9 therapy sessions on my calendar over the next few months. “ TMI,” you say? I only tell you to encourage you that you are not alone.
Depression seems to diminish my ability to hear the Father’s voice. But wait… couldn’t it be that He just isn’t speaking and that’s why I don’t hear Him as much? As much as I’d like to blame Him for deserting me in my time of need, well, been there done that with nothing good resulting. No matter what I’m feeling or not feeling, hearing or not hearing, one thing I know is true: GOD’S WORD. And I choose to believe it despite my circumstances, in spite of emotions that frequently knock me down and threaten to drown me. I cling as hard as I can to the l promise that He NEVER leaves me or forsakes me. It’s a lifeline. And even when I let go of the rope…I discover that He was the one doing all the holding.
Here’s my version of Psalm 23. I hope you will speak it over your life today.
Jesus, You are my strong champion, my protector and defender. No matter what comes my way, You are here, presently present, standing right beside me.
You meet my every need in good time. My need for rest, my need for strength, my need for health, my need for the peace only You can provide.
Your love pursues my heart and overtakes me, restoring my confidence in You, and I remember that You are on my side.
You keep me on Your path when I get distracted and try to disappear, not wanting to face my issues. It’s Your love for me that motivates You to deal with them, because You love righteousness and You want to make my life a witness to those around me, and a testament to Your greatness and goodness.
Even when it seems my life is over and there’s nothing left to do, You are with me. I can choose to not be fearful but to hold Your hand and lean in. You protect my heart as long as I stay hidden in You. You comfort me with the hope of eternity.
When my enemies of fear and shame and guilt and sickness and depression and anxiety surround me, You are my champion and make me overcome them. You call me into Your presence and feed me from Your Word. What a bountiful buffet is there when I choose to partake of it! Heal me today with Your precious Word… until my heart overflows! Indeed, Your good mercy and great kindness go with me everywhere and I will live with You, walk beside you, and draw strength from You both now and forever.
With joy,
Rhonda
“God is not looking for those who can but those who will.”
